Wednesday, December 24, 2008

dead leaves

Where do these dead leaves come from? These dead, green-sucked, yellow leaves. Ghosts? I don’t believe in them in public. I can have long debates supporting their non-existence. The moment I walk a dark road, my arguments stop making sense to myself. I believe I could deny ghost’s existence only in public to public, not to myself, lonely.
There is this strange whiff suggesting somebody else’s presence. I often avoid it, or maybe I pretend doing it, maybe nobody can. Sometimes the whiff keeps returning to me making the presence more physical or rather strong. My thoughts avoidingly start chasing the unknown but my eyes are hooked on my legs and their gradually increasing pace. The presence consciously tries to avoid my eyes not my ears. Ears pioneer themselves to hear the breathing of dead stones, dead leaves, trees and the deafening consciousness of the other. I can understand now why dead leaves lie there all morning? to make sense in the night, to make other’s presence mildly louder and to sink my heart deeper.

8 comments:

everything burns... said...

spooky :)

~vagabond~ said...

LOL. I can relate to this. I'm a lot like that too. I insist I dont believe in ghosts. I'm skeptical that they exist at all. But for the life of me, I wont go anywhere near a cemetery or a supposedly haunted house or anywhere where there's even the slightest chance of a ghost creeping up on me. :D

Lakshmi said...

a bit scary but well written ..agree with vagabond ..wish u a very happy new year too

Reader Wil said...

Walking in a dark forest, even if there are no snakes or dangerous animals, never appeals to me either.
I don't believe in ghosts but there some nasty, bad people in the woods trying to do harm to any human being walking alone. In your country and Indonesia where I grew up, I wouldn't walk out at night for fear of snakes or other creatures.Same in Australia where one of my daughters lives. But I still don't believe in ghosts.

Reader Wil said...

I wish you a very happy new year. You write very well!

kunal said...

@evrything

I wanted to make it a bit more spooky, but ran short of expression and words.
@vagabond
atleast about ghosts u agreed with me.
@lakshmi
thanks and wish u too
@ reader Wil
Ya bad people make good places unsafe.

Prianca said...

nice post
spooky and reveals the psyche of every person who says in public "bhoot woot kuch nahi hote yaar"
haha
really liked it

alok said...

A good piece of writing, I can relate it - "seek not to understand that you may believe, but believe that you may understand."

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